Trigger warning – Sexual abuse
So to get this show started let me tell you I’m going to be very honest and I hope my experience may help someone even one person. I guess the best place to is to start at the beginning.
So at the age of 5 I was raped by my sister due to unknown reasons I have never brought it up to her which has brought it’s own issues btw I’m male. At 7 my dad re married. With her son I discovered I was bi by getting/giving my first oral intercourse. After that I feared sexual relations. But it dint impact my biological issues. I wrote my first suicide not at the ripe age of 9. I hate talking about my problems so I pushed and made everything I was just fine. I did this tell I was 19 when I realized it would never work. And I suffered in silence another 5 years tell now. But the things I have learned from this experience are that firstly substances will never be the right answer. Secouldy never take your friendships/relationships for granted. Because those are the people who will be there to pick you up. Regardless of how you treated them. But the biggest thing is never ever take a simple moment of pleasure for granted. Because I will promise anyone this from experience. Is the most mundane things is what will always bring you back to reality. And we will all always struggle I mean personally I deal with manic depression, social anxiety, PTSD, adhd, and bipolar disorder. There I’d always hope for us and always redemption. And I have left out many things but I’m here to contact if need be I’ll give a random email address if you want o to talk firstname.lastname@example.org